April 02, 2005
The Fractured No
I visited my nutritionist again today. I got tied up in Symphony traffic, and it just wasn't a time to be late.
After brief consultation, all of us, in our own ways, went to work on my fractured no . It was fractured early by you know who, who did not take kindly to the two year old "NO!". (Remind me to write a Struwwelpeter rhyme about the little girl who said no. Heinrich Hoffman seems to have dismissed it as too minor an infraction.) A girl without a no in the world doesn't feel very safe. In fact, she feels terrified of the consequences of saying no, so she rarely does it.
I did take Model Mugging several years ago which involved a good deal of practice yelling "NO!" at the top of my lungs and stamping my feet near the head of a felled perpetrator. My nutritionist pointed out that the "no" that I seem to be lacking is the "no, it doesn't suit me"
As to the restorative process. Suffice it to say that it took place on the table and involved toning, druidish ditties, incantations and pain draining from the heart.
My nutritionist sent me home with two of her own healing angels for the week. (I think she has some to spare.) I certainly can use a little reinforcement. I asked their names (for googling purposes) and my nutritionist giggled and said they told her to tell me, Roberta and Henry - taken directly from a 30's musical. My kind of angels.
I have yet to use my "No, it doesn't suit me" (end there, no explanations, no discussion) Maybe it's just present as a little red vapor in my aura, where others can sense it, and they won't even bother to test.
In the meantime, I plan to use my "No, it doesn't suit me" for nutritional purposes. You can see why this process is called "Inner Nourishment"
Which Roberta do you think came home with me? Here's Henry .
Photo note: Pretty good shot of the "no fragments", if I do say so myself. They look like they could use a little Heeeeelium.
Posted by Dakota at April 2, 2005 05:53 AM